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    Rather Be: ā€œIā€™d rather be a hypocrite than the same person forever" [oc]
    

        
        
        
        
        
        
        
        
    

    

        

            
            

                
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    Rather Be: ā€œIā€™d rather be a hypocrite than the same person forever" [oc]
    

        
        
        
        
        
        
        
        
    

    

        

            
            

                
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    Rather Be: stellarsteele:
Here is a preview of my first book ever! I am planning on releasing the full book very soon. Let me know what you think :))).
Prologue
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My name is Eva. I had one boyfriend in high school who turned
out to be a disappointment. After breaking up with him, he kept sending me
creepy messages on social media. I did what any girl would doā€”I blocked him. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I am anxious for another romantic
experience with a different outcome. I thought college would be my chance, but
this pandemic swooped in and fucked everything up.
My ideal is a cute guy who is sensitive and provides me with
unconditional love. I want to have deep conversations with him too. 
Physical appearance isnā€™t my greatest asset: I am not ugly,
but not gorgeous. Sometimes guys at parties tell me that Iā€™m charming and a
good listener though. I would much rather be kissed than told these things, but
Iā€™ve learned to work with what I have.
I must admit, Iā€™m hard on myself. My roommate Emma has a lot
of hookups and I always feel below her. She still complains about the absence
of dateable guys which makes me feel better about my lack of success. 
I should mention my parents because I am going to be stuck
with them for a while. They are strange as fuck. My dad is a classic nerd and my
mother was wild in college. Iā€™m pretty sure that she did cocaine at a party in
college once. I honestly couldnā€™t tell you how they ended up together.
I have no idea what to expect from this quarantine. Iā€™m going
to try to be productive and stay positive. Maybe, something good will come out
of this. Iā€™ve already improved my personal hygieneā€”itā€™s hard to stay super
hygienic in college. Iā€™ve been eating a lot healthier too since college
cafeterias are no longer part of my daily routine. 
I also have a good excuse for being single. Iā€™m going to take
this time to find out more about myself. Maybe a boyfriend isnā€™t what I need
right now. 
Although, if a cute guy were to enter my life right now, I am
not sure I would be able to refuse him. Even if he got me infectedā€¦
Day 1
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My quarantine hasnā€™t been too bad so far. I started off by
cleaning my room: I found a lot of dust under my bed and on my windows that
desperately needed attention. My closet was a disaster too. I found a ton of
clothes that havenā€™t fit me since middle school. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā After, I went for a run in my
neighborhood and discovered that my neighbors were completely disregarding the social
distancing protocol. I didnā€™t heckle them or anything for disobeying the rules,
but I was disappointed. You really discover who people really are when the
world goes to shit.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I laid on my bed for a while and
ended up reading an entire book. I havenā€™t been committed to a book like that
since the Harry Potter books. I was lowkey impressed with myself. After, I fell
asleep for a couple hours. I have a feeling that naps are going to be a big
part of my daily routine even if I try to resist them. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā Next, I checked my school email and
discovered that all my classes are moving to a virtual platform called Zoom. I
have no idea how virtual chemistry labs are going to work. Hopefully, my professor
will save everyone the stress and give us all an A.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I checked my Instagram feed and
ended up making a clever post. I got the most likes I have ever gotten which
was satisfying. I am going to try to be more regular with my social media
posts.
Now, Iā€™m sitting at my desk listening to The Weekndā€™s new
album. I love his angelic voice and atmospheric beats. Iā€™m trying to come up
with a list of goals for myself for quarantine: read a book; try to spend more
time with my parents; do yoga 3 times per week; post regularly on social media;
get laid. 
This is probably influenced by The Weekndā€™s erotic music, but
sex does sound nice right now. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā It sounds so nice that I grab
my dildo out of my drawer and take my pants off. I slide it slowly into my
vagina at first and gradually increase the speed. I imagine my ideal guy on top
of me, penetrating me and whispering dirty things in my ear. I am getting so
wet. It is surprising how responsive I am to this little toy. Using my other
hand, I start massaging my clit. Now, Iā€™m forcefully moving the dildo in and
out of my pussy. In my mind, my ideal man is caressing my back and clapping my
cheeks hard as fuck. I start moaning and eventually I come all over my bed
sheets. 
The initial pleasure from the orgasm quickly wears off.
Instead of feeling blissful, I feel ashamed of myself for not finding a man
since high school. The loneliness is suffocating. I feel myself sinking into my
bed, drowning in my tears slowly. Everyone seems to have found someone except
for me. 

    

        
        
        
        
        
        
        
        
    

    

        

            
            

                
                Rather Be: stellarsteele:
Here is a preview of my first book ever! I am planning on releasing the full book very soon. Let me know what you think :))).
Prologue
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My name is Eva. I had one boyfriend in high school who turned
out to be a disappointment. After breaking up with him, he kept sending me
creepy messages on social media. I did what any girl would doā€”I blocked him. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I am anxious for another romantic
experience with a different outcome. I thought college would be my chance, but
this pandemic swooped in and fucked everything up.
My ideal is a cute guy who is sensitive and provides me with
unconditional love. I want to have deep conversations with him too. 
Physical appearance isnā€™t my greatest asset: I am not ugly,
but not gorgeous. Sometimes guys at parties tell me that Iā€™m charming and a
good listener though. I would much rather be kissed than told these things, but
Iā€™ve learned to work with what I have.
I must admit, Iā€™m hard on myself. My roommate Emma has a lot
of hookups and I always feel below her. She still complains about the absence
of dateable guys which makes me feel better about my lack of success. 
I should mention my parents because I am going to be stuck
with them for a while. They are strange as fuck. My dad is a classic nerd and my
mother was wild in college. Iā€™m pretty sure that she did cocaine at a party in
college once. I honestly couldnā€™t tell you how they ended up together.
I have no idea what to expect from this quarantine. Iā€™m going
to try to be productive and stay positive. Maybe, something good will come out
of this. Iā€™ve already improved my personal hygieneā€”itā€™s hard to stay super
hygienic in college. Iā€™ve been eating a lot healthier too since college
cafeterias are no longer part of my daily routine. 
I also have a good excuse for being single. Iā€™m going to take
this time to find out more about myself. Maybe a boyfriend isnā€™t what I need
right now. 
Although, if a cute guy were to enter my life right now, I am
not sure I would be able to refuse him. Even if he got me infectedā€¦
Day 1
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My quarantine hasnā€™t been too bad so far. I started off by
cleaning my room: I found a lot of dust under my bed and on my windows that
desperately needed attention. My closet was a disaster too. I found a ton of
clothes that havenā€™t fit me since middle school. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā After, I went for a run in my
neighborhood and discovered that my neighbors were completely disregarding the social
distancing protocol. I didnā€™t heckle them or anything for disobeying the rules,
but I was disappointed. You really discover who people really are when the
world goes to shit.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I laid on my bed for a while and
ended up reading an entire book. I havenā€™t been committed to a book like that
since the Harry Potter books. I was lowkey impressed with myself. After, I fell
asleep for a couple hours. I have a feeling that naps are going to be a big
part of my daily routine even if I try to resist them. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā Next, I checked my school email and
discovered that all my classes are moving to a virtual platform called Zoom. I
have no idea how virtual chemistry labs are going to work. Hopefully, my professor
will save everyone the stress and give us all an A.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I checked my Instagram feed and
ended up making a clever post. I got the most likes I have ever gotten which
was satisfying. I am going to try to be more regular with my social media
posts.
Now, Iā€™m sitting at my desk listening to The Weekndā€™s new
album. I love his angelic voice and atmospheric beats. Iā€™m trying to come up
with a list of goals for myself for quarantine: read a book; try to spend more
time with my parents; do yoga 3 times per week; post regularly on social media;
get laid. 
This is probably influenced by The Weekndā€™s erotic music, but
sex does sound nice right now. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā It sounds so nice that I grab
my dildo out of my drawer and take my pants off. I slide it slowly into my
vagina at first and gradually increase the speed. I imagine my ideal guy on top
of me, penetrating me and whispering dirty things in my ear. I am getting so
wet. It is surprising how responsive I am to this little toy. Using my other
hand, I start massaging my clit. Now, Iā€™m forcefully moving the dildo in and
out of my pussy. In my mind, my ideal man is caressing my back and clapping my
cheeks hard as fuck. I start moaning and eventually I come all over my bed
sheets. 
The initial pleasure from the orgasm quickly wears off.
Instead of feeling blissful, I feel ashamed of myself for not finding a man
since high school. The loneliness is suffocating. I feel myself sinking into my
bed, drowning in my tears slowly. Everyone seems to have found someone except
for me. 

                
            

            
            
stellarsteele:
Here is a preview of my first book ever! I am planning on releasing the full book very soon. Let me know what you think :)...

            
            
        

    



            

        

        
        

            

                







    Rather Be: stellarsteele:
Here is a preview of my first book ever! I am planning on releasing the full book very soon. Let me know what you think :))).
Prologue
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My name is Eva. I had one boyfriend in high school who turned
out to be a disappointment. After breaking up with him, he kept sending me
creepy messages on social media. I did what any girl would doā€”I blocked him. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I am anxious for another romantic
experience with a different outcome. I thought college would be my chance, but
this pandemic swooped in and fucked everything up.
My ideal is a cute guy who is sensitive and provides me with
unconditional love. I want to have deep conversations with him too. 
Physical appearance isnā€™t my greatest asset: I am not ugly,
but not gorgeous. Sometimes guys at parties tell me that Iā€™m charming and a
good listener though. I would much rather be kissed than told these things, but
Iā€™ve learned to work with what I have.
I must admit, Iā€™m hard on myself. My roommate Emma has a lot
of hookups and I always feel below her. She still complains about the absence
of dateable guys which makes me feel better about my lack of success. 
I should mention my parents because I am going to be stuck
with them for a while. They are strange as fuck. My dad is a classic nerd and my
mother was wild in college. Iā€™m pretty sure that she did cocaine at a party in
college once. I honestly couldnā€™t tell you how they ended up together.
I have no idea what to expect from this quarantine. Iā€™m going
to try to be productive and stay positive. Maybe, something good will come out
of this. Iā€™ve already improved my personal hygieneā€”itā€™s hard to stay super
hygienic in college. Iā€™ve been eating a lot healthier too since college
cafeterias are no longer part of my daily routine. 
I also have a good excuse for being single. Iā€™m going to take
this time to find out more about myself. Maybe a boyfriend isnā€™t what I need
right now. 
Although, if a cute guy were to enter my life right now, I am
not sure I would be able to refuse him. Even if he got me infectedā€¦
Day 1
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My quarantine hasnā€™t been too bad so far. I started off by
cleaning my room: I found a lot of dust under my bed and on my windows that
desperately needed attention. My closet was a disaster too. I found a ton of
clothes that havenā€™t fit me since middle school. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā After, I went for a run in my
neighborhood and discovered that my neighbors were completely disregarding the social
distancing protocol. I didnā€™t heckle them or anything for disobeying the rules,
but I was disappointed. You really discover who people really are when the
world goes to shit.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I laid on my bed for a while and
ended up reading an entire book. I havenā€™t been committed to a book like that
since the Harry Potter books. I was lowkey impressed with myself. After, I fell
asleep for a couple hours. I have a feeling that naps are going to be a big
part of my daily routine even if I try to resist them. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā Next, I checked my school email and
discovered that all my classes are moving to a virtual platform called Zoom. I
have no idea how virtual chemistry labs are going to work. Hopefully, my professor
will save everyone the stress and give us all an A.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I checked my Instagram feed and
ended up making a clever post. I got the most likes I have ever gotten which
was satisfying. I am going to try to be more regular with my social media
posts.
Now, Iā€™m sitting at my desk listening to The Weekndā€™s new
album. I love his angelic voice and atmospheric beats. Iā€™m trying to come up
with a list of goals for myself for quarantine: read a book; try to spend more
time with my parents; do yoga 3 times per week; post regularly on social media;
get laid. 
This is probably influenced by The Weekndā€™s erotic music, but
sex does sound nice right now. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā It sounds so nice that I grab
my dildo out of my drawer and take my pants off. I slide it slowly into my
vagina at first and gradually increase the speed. I imagine my ideal guy on top
of me, penetrating me and whispering dirty things in my ear. I am getting so
wet. It is surprising how responsive I am to this little toy. Using my other
hand, I start massaging my clit. Now, Iā€™m forcefully moving the dildo in and
out of my pussy. In my mind, my ideal man is caressing my back and clapping my
cheeks hard as fuck. I start moaning and eventually I come all over my bed
sheets. 
The initial pleasure from the orgasm quickly wears off.
Instead of feeling blissful, I feel ashamed of myself for not finding a man
since high school. The loneliness is suffocating. I feel myself sinking into my
bed, drowning in my tears slowly. Everyone seems to have found someone except
for me. 

    

        
        
        
        
        
        
        
        
    

    

        

            
            

                
                Rather Be: stellarsteele:
Here is a preview of my first book ever! I am planning on releasing the full book very soon. Let me know what you think :))).
Prologue
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My name is Eva. I had one boyfriend in high school who turned
out to be a disappointment. After breaking up with him, he kept sending me
creepy messages on social media. I did what any girl would doā€”I blocked him. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I am anxious for another romantic
experience with a different outcome. I thought college would be my chance, but
this pandemic swooped in and fucked everything up.
My ideal is a cute guy who is sensitive and provides me with
unconditional love. I want to have deep conversations with him too. 
Physical appearance isnā€™t my greatest asset: I am not ugly,
but not gorgeous. Sometimes guys at parties tell me that Iā€™m charming and a
good listener though. I would much rather be kissed than told these things, but
Iā€™ve learned to work with what I have.
I must admit, Iā€™m hard on myself. My roommate Emma has a lot
of hookups and I always feel below her. She still complains about the absence
of dateable guys which makes me feel better about my lack of success. 
I should mention my parents because I am going to be stuck
with them for a while. They are strange as fuck. My dad is a classic nerd and my
mother was wild in college. Iā€™m pretty sure that she did cocaine at a party in
college once. I honestly couldnā€™t tell you how they ended up together.
I have no idea what to expect from this quarantine. Iā€™m going
to try to be productive and stay positive. Maybe, something good will come out
of this. Iā€™ve already improved my personal hygieneā€”itā€™s hard to stay super
hygienic in college. Iā€™ve been eating a lot healthier too since college
cafeterias are no longer part of my daily routine. 
I also have a good excuse for being single. Iā€™m going to take
this time to find out more about myself. Maybe a boyfriend isnā€™t what I need
right now. 
Although, if a cute guy were to enter my life right now, I am
not sure I would be able to refuse him. Even if he got me infectedā€¦
Day 1
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My quarantine hasnā€™t been too bad so far. I started off by
cleaning my room: I found a lot of dust under my bed and on my windows that
desperately needed attention. My closet was a disaster too. I found a ton of
clothes that havenā€™t fit me since middle school. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā After, I went for a run in my
neighborhood and discovered that my neighbors were completely disregarding the social
distancing protocol. I didnā€™t heckle them or anything for disobeying the rules,
but I was disappointed. You really discover who people really are when the
world goes to shit.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I laid on my bed for a while and
ended up reading an entire book. I havenā€™t been committed to a book like that
since the Harry Potter books. I was lowkey impressed with myself. After, I fell
asleep for a couple hours. I have a feeling that naps are going to be a big
part of my daily routine even if I try to resist them. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā Next, I checked my school email and
discovered that all my classes are moving to a virtual platform called Zoom. I
have no idea how virtual chemistry labs are going to work. Hopefully, my professor
will save everyone the stress and give us all an A.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I checked my Instagram feed and
ended up making a clever post. I got the most likes I have ever gotten which
was satisfying. I am going to try to be more regular with my social media
posts.
Now, Iā€™m sitting at my desk listening to The Weekndā€™s new
album. I love his angelic voice and atmospheric beats. Iā€™m trying to come up
with a list of goals for myself for quarantine: read a book; try to spend more
time with my parents; do yoga 3 times per week; post regularly on social media;
get laid. 
This is probably influenced by The Weekndā€™s erotic music, but
sex does sound nice right now. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā It sounds so nice that I grab
my dildo out of my drawer and take my pants off. I slide it slowly into my
vagina at first and gradually increase the speed. I imagine my ideal guy on top
of me, penetrating me and whispering dirty things in my ear. I am getting so
wet. It is surprising how responsive I am to this little toy. Using my other
hand, I start massaging my clit. Now, Iā€™m forcefully moving the dildo in and
out of my pussy. In my mind, my ideal man is caressing my back and clapping my
cheeks hard as fuck. I start moaning and eventually I come all over my bed
sheets. 
The initial pleasure from the orgasm quickly wears off.
Instead of feeling blissful, I feel ashamed of myself for not finding a man
since high school. The loneliness is suffocating. I feel myself sinking into my
bed, drowning in my tears slowly. Everyone seems to have found someone except
for me. 

                
            

            
            
stellarsteele:
Here is a preview of my first book ever! I am planning on releasing the full book very soon. Let me know what you think :)...

            
            
        

    



            

        

        
        

            

                







    Rather Be: stellarsteele:
Here is a preview of my first book ever! I am planning on releasing the full book very soon. Let me know what you think :))).
Prologue
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My name is Eva. I had one boyfriend in high school who turned
out to be a disappointment. After breaking up with him, he kept sending me
creepy messages on social media. I did what any girl would doā€”I blocked him. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I am anxious for another romantic
experience with a different outcome. I thought college would be my chance, but
this pandemic swooped in and fucked everything up.
My ideal is a cute guy who is sensitive and provides me with
unconditional love. I want to have deep conversations with him too. 
Physical appearance isnā€™t my greatest asset: I am not ugly,
but not gorgeous. Sometimes guys at parties tell me that Iā€™m charming and a
good listener though. I would much rather be kissed than told these things, but
Iā€™ve learned to work with what I have.
I must admit, Iā€™m hard on myself. My roommate Emma has a lot
of hookups and I always feel below her. She still complains about the absence
of dateable guys which makes me feel better about my lack of success. 
I should mention my parents because I am going to be stuck
with them for a while. They are strange as fuck. My dad is a classic nerd and my
mother was wild in college. Iā€™m pretty sure that she did cocaine at a party in
college once. I honestly couldnā€™t tell you how they ended up together.
I have no idea what to expect from this quarantine. Iā€™m going
to try to be productive and stay positive. Maybe, something good will come out
of this. Iā€™ve already improved my personal hygieneā€”itā€™s hard to stay super
hygienic in college. Iā€™ve been eating a lot healthier too since college
cafeterias are no longer part of my daily routine. 
I also have a good excuse for being single. Iā€™m going to take
this time to find out more about myself. Maybe a boyfriend isnā€™t what I need
right now. 
Although, if a cute guy were to enter my life right now, I am
not sure I would be able to refuse him. Even if he got me infectedā€¦
Day 1
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My quarantine hasnā€™t been too bad so far. I started off by
cleaning my room: I found a lot of dust under my bed and on my windows that
desperately needed attention. My closet was a disaster too. I found a ton of
clothes that havenā€™t fit me since middle school. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā After, I went for a run in my
neighborhood and discovered that my neighbors were completely disregarding the social
distancing protocol. I didnā€™t heckle them or anything for disobeying the rules,
but I was disappointed. You really discover who people really are when the
world goes to shit.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I laid on my bed for a while and
ended up reading an entire book. I havenā€™t been committed to a book like that
since the Harry Potter books. I was lowkey impressed with myself. After, I fell
asleep for a couple hours. I have a feeling that naps are going to be a big
part of my daily routine even if I try to resist them. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā Next, I checked my school email and
discovered that all my classes are moving to a virtual platform called Zoom. I
have no idea how virtual chemistry labs are going to work. Hopefully, my professor
will save everyone the stress and give us all an A.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I checked my Instagram feed and
ended up making a clever post. I got the most likes I have ever gotten which
was satisfying. I am going to try to be more regular with my social media
posts.
Now, Iā€™m sitting at my desk listening to The Weekndā€™s new
album. I love his angelic voice and atmospheric beats. Iā€™m trying to come up
with a list of goals for myself for quarantine: read a book; try to spend more
time with my parents; do yoga 3 times per week; post regularly on social media;
get laid. 
This is probably influenced by The Weekndā€™s erotic music, but
sex does sound nice right now. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā It sounds so nice that I grab
my dildo out of my drawer and take my pants off. I slide it slowly into my
vagina at first and gradually increase the speed. I imagine my ideal guy on top
of me, penetrating me and whispering dirty things in my ear. I am getting so
wet. It is surprising how responsive I am to this little toy. Using my other
hand, I start massaging my clit. Now, Iā€™m forcefully moving the dildo in and
out of my pussy. In my mind, my ideal man is caressing my back and clapping my
cheeks hard as fuck. I start moaning and eventually I come all over my bed
sheets. 
The initial pleasure from the orgasm quickly wears off.
Instead of feeling blissful, I feel ashamed of myself for not finding a man
since high school. The loneliness is suffocating. I feel myself sinking into my
bed, drowning in my tears slowly. Everyone seems to have found someone except
for me. 

    

        
        
        
        
        
        
        
        
    

    

        

            
            

                
                Rather Be: stellarsteele:
Here is a preview of my first book ever! I am planning on releasing the full book very soon. Let me know what you think :))).
Prologue
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My name is Eva. I had one boyfriend in high school who turned
out to be a disappointment. After breaking up with him, he kept sending me
creepy messages on social media. I did what any girl would doā€”I blocked him. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I am anxious for another romantic
experience with a different outcome. I thought college would be my chance, but
this pandemic swooped in and fucked everything up.
My ideal is a cute guy who is sensitive and provides me with
unconditional love. I want to have deep conversations with him too. 
Physical appearance isnā€™t my greatest asset: I am not ugly,
but not gorgeous. Sometimes guys at parties tell me that Iā€™m charming and a
good listener though. I would much rather be kissed than told these things, but
Iā€™ve learned to work with what I have.
I must admit, Iā€™m hard on myself. My roommate Emma has a lot
of hookups and I always feel below her. She still complains about the absence
of dateable guys which makes me feel better about my lack of success. 
I should mention my parents because I am going to be stuck
with them for a while. They are strange as fuck. My dad is a classic nerd and my
mother was wild in college. Iā€™m pretty sure that she did cocaine at a party in
college once. I honestly couldnā€™t tell you how they ended up together.
I have no idea what to expect from this quarantine. Iā€™m going
to try to be productive and stay positive. Maybe, something good will come out
of this. Iā€™ve already improved my personal hygieneā€”itā€™s hard to stay super
hygienic in college. Iā€™ve been eating a lot healthier too since college
cafeterias are no longer part of my daily routine. 
I also have a good excuse for being single. Iā€™m going to take
this time to find out more about myself. Maybe a boyfriend isnā€™t what I need
right now. 
Although, if a cute guy were to enter my life right now, I am
not sure I would be able to refuse him. Even if he got me infectedā€¦
Day 1
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā My quarantine hasnā€™t been too bad so far. I started off by
cleaning my room: I found a lot of dust under my bed and on my windows that
desperately needed attention. My closet was a disaster too. I found a ton of
clothes that havenā€™t fit me since middle school. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā After, I went for a run in my
neighborhood and discovered that my neighbors were completely disregarding the social
distancing protocol. I didnā€™t heckle them or anything for disobeying the rules,
but I was disappointed. You really discover who people really are when the
world goes to shit.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I laid on my bed for a while and
ended up reading an entire book. I havenā€™t been committed to a book like that
since the Harry Potter books. I was lowkey impressed with myself. After, I fell
asleep for a couple hours. I have a feeling that naps are going to be a big
part of my daily routine even if I try to resist them. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā Next, I checked my school email and
discovered that all my classes are moving to a virtual platform called Zoom. I
have no idea how virtual chemistry labs are going to work. Hopefully, my professor
will save everyone the stress and give us all an A.
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā I checked my Instagram feed and
ended up making a clever post. I got the most likes I have ever gotten which
was satisfying. I am going to try to be more regular with my social media
posts.
Now, Iā€™m sitting at my desk listening to The Weekndā€™s new
album. I love his angelic voice and atmospheric beats. Iā€™m trying to come up
with a list of goals for myself for quarantine: read a book; try to spend more
time with my parents; do yoga 3 times per week; post regularly on social media;
get laid. 
This is probably influenced by The Weekndā€™s erotic music, but
sex does sound nice right now. 
 Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā It sounds so nice that I grab
my dildo out of my drawer and take my pants off. I slide it slowly into my
vagina at first and gradually increase the speed. I imagine my ideal guy on top
of me, penetrating me and whispering dirty things in my ear. I am getting so
wet. It is surprising how responsive I am to this little toy. Using my other
hand, I start massaging my clit. Now, Iā€™m forcefully moving the dildo in and
out of my pussy. In my mind, my ideal man is caressing my back and clapping my
cheeks hard as fuck. I start moaning and eventually I come all over my bed
sheets. 
The initial pleasure from the orgasm quickly wears off.
Instead of feeling blissful, I feel ashamed of myself for not finding a man
since high school. The loneliness is suffocating. I feel myself sinking into my
bed, drowning in my tears slowly. Everyone seems to have found someone except
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Here is a preview of my first book ever! I am planning on releasing the full book very soon. Let me know what you think :)...

            
            
        

    



            

        

        
        

            

                







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    Rather Be: Sophia Benoit
 @1followernodad
 ok here's the deal. Yes it was dumb of NASA to ask Sally
 Ride if she needed 100 tampons for a 7-day mission,
 but I would have said "Actually I need 250" because
 that's free tampons from the government, babbbbyyy.
 10:22 PM Aug 16, 2019 Twitter Web App
appropriately-inappropriate:

you-cannot-shut-me-up:


talvin-muircastle:

signoraviolettavalery:

haunted-meat:

dennator25:

So this seems dumbā€¦and it isā€¦but itā€™s dumb with a purpose. I can almost guarantee you the exact line of reasoning that gets NASA engineers to 100.
Ok, first of all assume the worst and assume she needs the max amount of tampons possible for all days. Now lets count it up.
7 days? Better be safe and make it 10.
3 tampons a day at worst? Better be safe and make it 5.
So that gives us 50 tampons. Ok. Double it.
And thatā€™s how you get 100.
Itā€™s ridiculous, but NASA has a culture ofĀ ā€œoverengineer absolutely everything to do with human safety, and then design around itā€ which is actually pretty cool.

Listen, I know this gets made fun of so much, but likeI am a woman who has periods and I have absolutely no idea how many tampons a woman requires in a week. I use primarily pads. But these men, at the least, ASKED her instead of making unfounded assumptions. 

Which would you rather be:
A. The NASA Director Who Sent Too Many?
B. The NASA Director Who Didnā€™t Send Enough?

Fair point. Itā€™ not like she couldā€™ve popped over to the corner drugstore to buy more!



Not to mention ā€” space is a hostile environment with multiple dangers, so having multiple redundancies is a bonus. 
Tampons, being ultra-absorbent, reasonably clean, and conveniently sized, can be used to staunch nosebleeds, or could be used to block a leak in a pipe. 
You never know what youā€™ll need until you need it, and weirder shit has saved lives at NASA. 

    

        
        
        
        
        
        
        
        
    

    

        

            
            

                
                Rather Be: Sophia Benoit
 @1followernodad
 ok here's the deal. Yes it was dumb of NASA to ask Sally
 Ride if she needed 100 tampons for a 7-day mission,
 but I would have said "Actually I need 250" because
 that's free tampons from the government, babbbbyyy.
 10:22 PM Aug 16, 2019 Twitter Web App
appropriately-inappropriate:

you-cannot-shut-me-up:


talvin-muircastle:

signoraviolettavalery:

haunted-meat:

dennator25:

So this seems dumbā€¦and it isā€¦but itā€™s dumb with a purpose. I can almost guarantee you the exact line of reasoning that gets NASA engineers to 100.
Ok, first of all assume the worst and assume she needs the max amount of tampons possible for all days. Now lets count it up.
7 days? Better be safe and make it 10.
3 tampons a day at worst? Better be safe and make it 5.
So that gives us 50 tampons. Ok. Double it.
And thatā€™s how you get 100.
Itā€™s ridiculous, but NASA has a culture ofĀ ā€œoverengineer absolutely everything to do with human safety, and then design around itā€ which is actually pretty cool.

Listen, I know this gets made fun of so much, but likeI am a woman who has periods and I have absolutely no idea how many tampons a woman requires in a week. I use primarily pads. But these men, at the least, ASKED her instead of making unfounded assumptions. 

Which would you rather be:
A. The NASA Director Who Sent Too Many?
B. The NASA Director Who Didnā€™t Send Enough?

Fair point. Itā€™ not like she couldā€™ve popped over to the corner drugstore to buy more!



Not to mention ā€” space is a hostile environment with multiple dangers, so having multiple redundancies is a bonus. 
Tampons, being ultra-absorbent, reasonably clean, and conveniently sized, can be used to staunch nosebleeds, or could be used to block a leak in a pipe. 
You never know what youā€™ll need until you need it, and weirder shit has saved lives at NASA. 

                
            

            
            
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you-cannot-shut-me-up:


talvin-muircastle:

signoraviolettavalery:

haunted-meat:

dennator25:

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    Rather Be: Sammi
 Thursday 11:51 AM
 Gimme a topic and I'll come up with a
 witty pick up line for it
 Or it'll be terrible, but then you can send
 it to your friends and laugh about it
 Thursday 12:24 PM
 That will be perfect
 Ummmm cereal!
 Thursday 1:14 PM
 You must be a bowl of cheerios because
 you are making my heart feel better
 already
 Tuesday 9:44 AM
 Ah so it was terrible
 That was actually cute. Idk why I didn't
 reply
 Tuesday 1:00 PM
 Was it cause you didnt want to make
 awkward small talk after?
 BECAUSE WE CAN DO BIG TALK IF
 THATS YOUR THING
 Tuesday 10:44 PM
 WHY DO YOU HAVE THE CUTEST
 THINGS TO SAY
 BECAUSE CUTE PEOPLE BRING OUT
 THE CUTE THINGS IN ME
 Not gonna lie you're like my top tinder
 guy now. You're SO smooth
 Tuesday 11:02 PM
 I'd like to suggest limbo for a date. That
 way I can lower the bar and continue to
 exceed expectations
 Tuesday 11:57 PM
 How about a baseball game? You're
 making a lot of homeruns with your
 puns and you're a real catch. Also,
 yet haven't had a strikeout yet in my
 opinion
 Today 2.14 AM
 What about going bowling? I know we're
 avoiding strikes but we'll have to make
 an exception because you're a serious
 10/10. I'd say an 11/10 for the ability to
 send one back my way but that'd break
 the scoring system
 Today 9:47 AM
 I don't mean to drive you batty with
 all of the date suggestions... but a
 haunted house may be better. The
 way you can come up with all of these
 is quite frightening. Also l'd rather be
 scared by the ghouls in the haunted
 house than being ghosted by you.
 Today 10:03 AM
 A haunted house with you would be a
 frighteningly good time. Fear not about
 ghosts, the only ghosting I intend to do
 is calling you "boo".
 Today 11:31 AM
 I'm dead
 hence why you're calling
 me "boo"
 Before you die, can I grab your
 number??
 Today 1:44 PM
 :)
 Type a message...
 GIF
Turning ghosting in my favor
    

        
        
        
        
        
        
        
        
    

    

        

            
            

                
                Rather Be: Sammi
 Thursday 11:51 AM
 Gimme a topic and I'll come up with a
 witty pick up line for it
 Or it'll be terrible, but then you can send
 it to your friends and laugh about it
 Thursday 12:24 PM
 That will be perfect
 Ummmm cereal!
 Thursday 1:14 PM
 You must be a bowl of cheerios because
 you are making my heart feel better
 already
 Tuesday 9:44 AM
 Ah so it was terrible
 That was actually cute. Idk why I didn't
 reply
 Tuesday 1:00 PM
 Was it cause you didnt want to make
 awkward small talk after?
 BECAUSE WE CAN DO BIG TALK IF
 THATS YOUR THING
 Tuesday 10:44 PM
 WHY DO YOU HAVE THE CUTEST
 THINGS TO SAY
 BECAUSE CUTE PEOPLE BRING OUT
 THE CUTE THINGS IN ME
 Not gonna lie you're like my top tinder
 guy now. You're SO smooth
 Tuesday 11:02 PM
 I'd like to suggest limbo for a date. That
 way I can lower the bar and continue to
 exceed expectations
 Tuesday 11:57 PM
 How about a baseball game? You're
 making a lot of homeruns with your
 puns and you're a real catch. Also,
 yet haven't had a strikeout yet in my
 opinion
 Today 2.14 AM
 What about going bowling? I know we're
 avoiding strikes but we'll have to make
 an exception because you're a serious
 10/10. I'd say an 11/10 for the ability to
 send one back my way but that'd break
 the scoring system
 Today 9:47 AM
 I don't mean to drive you batty with
 all of the date suggestions... but a
 haunted house may be better. The
 way you can come up with all of these
 is quite frightening. Also l'd rather be
 scared by the ghouls in the haunted
 house than being ghosted by you.
 Today 10:03 AM
 A haunted house with you would be a
 frighteningly good time. Fear not about
 ghosts, the only ghosting I intend to do
 is calling you "boo".
 Today 11:31 AM
 I'm dead
 hence why you're calling
 me "boo"
 Before you die, can I grab your
 number??
 Today 1:44 PM
 :)
 Type a message...
 GIF
Turning ghosting in my favor
                
            

            
            
Turning ghosting in my favor